Waiting for that ‘someday’

Ten years from now, guaranteed I’ll be a great teacher. My lessons will unfold exactly as I hope, no more mistakes, classroom management will never present me with any new challenges, and I will be an expert at designing truly authentic learning experiences and orchestrating deep—very deep—discussions that truly capture and elicit my students’ curiosity.

Of course, that’s a lie. But a lie that as a beginning teacher you tend to believe is true. That today is about making mistakes and tomorrow—that someday—is about becoming an expert teacher. But then, as you begin to emerge yourself in the practice, this image starts to fade away. Bit-by-bit you start to realize that that ‘someday’ doesn’t even exist and this image is serving more as a justification for making mistakes. As if somewhere down the line mistakes will no longer be valid or acceptable. As if teaching, the art of tapping into another human’s brain, influencing the shape of neural pathways and continually trying to make learning relevant to the changing world around us is something that is finite.

How could I have believed that this is true while holding on to the idea that teachers are researchers? When does research ever stop? When does the learning ever stop?

I had five goals written out before walking into my final practicum and it was time to reflect on them. Did I meet my goals? Can I place a checkmark now beside all these areas?

No, I didn’t meet all my goals. I didn’t even know what the criteria for that even means. Sure, I developed in some areas, but in others, I barely touched the surface. In fact, the more I reflected and the more reading I was doing online to find out what other great teachers are doing in these areas, the more I realized how much more learning lies ahead of me. I could only think of this quote in that moment:


But I was perfectly satisfied with that and instead of feeling disappointed, I continued to read with a smile on my face. I was exactly where I wanted to be because as Dan Meyer once placed it, “I need a job that has me learning everyday.”  Not to say that learning only occurs in the field of teaching, but rather, it’s the type of knowledge seeking that excites your neurons, whether it be about education, arts, sports, fashion –whatever makes you curious to learn more.

Today, my fixed mindset image about ‘someday’ mastering the art of teaching no longer exists. Instead, it’s reflected more in a truly authentic yet unfinished painting with only one purpose —to keep you curious.

In a previous post, I made a sketchnote reflection about my top 10 What Went Well during practicum with the intention of following up with an Even Better If one, but the list was simply too long. I ended up writing this instead, but as a final Even Better If statement: aim to be an expert in the content of your subject, but know that the art of transferring that knowledge will always be a work in progress –enjoy the painting more!

Final Practicum Refleciton: What Went Well

Here are my top 10 What Went Well sketchnote reflection during my final practicum (i.e., what mattered/what I feel much more developed or comfortable at).


This form of reflection turned out to be extremely beneficial because not only was I taking the time to express and breakdown my thoughts in writing, but actually delving deeper while trying to find the right visual to capture them.

Flipping Bottles

Today, for our intermediate level math course at uOttawa, Cassandra Mclean and I took our first shot at designing/presenting an activity station. Ok, it’s not really our first shot, we kind of did it last year as well for another course, but I think building off from previous experiences, it definitely felt a bit more developed this time.

The activity itself targeted Grade 9 linear relations. We had our ideas down but then two days before our presentation we came across Dan Meyer‘s  #BottleFlipping lesson and Jon Orr‘s successful implementation of it via Twitter and decided to scrap our original plans.

We modelled our (15-20 minute) activity around Jon Orr’s lesson design.

Set-up the table with an instruction sheet, “contest” sheet, an iPad to watch a quick video, some devices for Desmos, and of course …the water bottles!

Each group started off with watching this quick video, then they logged onto Desmos for the first part of our activity. Here’s a sample from some of their responses:


Next, was the actual contest:


Some groups got a little bit more competitive than others and started to have conversations about slight differences in the bottle design 🙂

Our timing was a little off because most of the groups didn’t get around to the final step (which is kind of important) and we also had to change it into only 2-3 one-minute trials. But, overall, I think it went pretty good and we even got some nice feedback.

Full credit goes to Jon Orr and Dan Meyer.

Planning for a 15-20 minute activity station was definitely a nice experience, kind of allows you to regroup your thoughts around lesson planning and your strategy for picking out main ideas/activities. It was nice to participate in them as well, felt like a mini in-class PD session on lesson ideas .

My final thought –if only all my lessons went this smooth 🙂  

Technology in the Classroom: Defining its Purpose

Technology use in the classroom largely depends on how teachers choose to incorporate it, but that’s not all.  One of the biggest takeaways from my first two weeks of practicum was reflecting on the purpose behind integrating technology in the classroom. On thought, I came to ask myself, why is it possible that one could walk into two different classrooms using the same tech tools, but see different results in terms of student engagement?

Having the fortunate opportunity to be able to observe how an experienced teacher capitalizes on their benefits allowed me to highlight the difference and dig deeper into thought about what makes their success vary from one classroom to the other.

From my personal observation and reflection, the key factor that stood out for me was the reason behind choosing to integrate technology –the one beyond learning that “special” skill. It’s first and foremost about taking the time to define the purpose I want it to serve in my classroom. Asking myself as a designer/facilitator the most important question when lesson planning—why? Why is this important for my students? Is it just about being tech-savvy, or can I further define its purpose and allow it to help me create a more meaningful and enjoyable learning experience? If my goal is to improve student engagement in the learning process, then how will they be able to engage in conversations with their peers, showcase their thoughts, share different strategies, and collectively engage in group discussions as they use this technology?

Walking into my placement two weeks ago, I was already curious to learn how technology can be integrated into a Grade 10 Math class. From previous experiences, I still had the idea in my head that when it came to technology vs. group-based activities, student engagement wouldn’t be as high.

Having that expectation and the imbedded image of students sitting on separate devices totally disengaged from the environment around them (only talking to their peers or teacher when they have a question or answer) definitely paved the way for one of my favourite experiences so far. For the first time I had the chance to experience what it truly felt like to be a facilitator/designer in the classroom. Albeit I was just an observer and active participant, but having that opportunity to experience the deep meaning of the former mentioned terms was truly inspiring.

For the entire 75-minutes students were leaders of their own learning. From the design of different activities that triggered curiosity, to the use of Visibly Random Groups (VRGs) and Vertical Non-Permanent Surfaces (VNPS), and the idea of showcasing and extending the learning with Pear Deck and Desmos, students were engaged and stimulated throughout the entire process. What struck me the most was that at no point was the technology isolated from the hands-on activities students were working on. They both served the purpose of complimenting each other. More specifically, the tools selected:

  • Created a safe space for students to communicate their individual thoughts, collectively;
  • Provided an extension to the hands-on learning with the added feature of personal/group reflection;
  • Provided students with a platform to analyze and present their own learning;
  • Offered room for feedback vs. direct teaching
    • Instead of highlighting key ideas by writing them on the board or reading them off a slide developed by the teacher, key concepts were conveyed through feedback on student work/thoughts projected through Pear Deck or displayed across the room (VNPS). The content of the “teaching” material was derived directly from student work.

Overall, more than just a tool to help students learn a new skill, technology served a much bigger purpose of creating an interactive community of thoughts.

It’s The Thought That Counts -Literally!

Imagine handing out a math test to your students with the following instructions:

Communicate in writing or in drawing:

  1. The process you will use to find the answer;
  2. Reason(s) to support your choice.

Please note: marks will be deducted if you write down the actual answer 🙂

This is the idea I got while scribing for a student during a standardized math test. Listening to him think aloud and watching him contemplate on ideas of how to go about in solving the questions was truly an exciting experience—one that would interest me, as a teacher, so much more than looking at the final answer.

The feeling of excitement was almost the same as that of reading a good book where you’re eager to flip through the pages to find out what happens next, but at the same time don’t want to skip over or miss any of the important details.

manipulativesI could tell that the student was enjoying the process of entertaining his thoughts and deciphering the puzzle (question) as well. Watching him jump from one thought to the other, as he experimented with his manipulatives, was like watching a detective trying to solve a crime scene. But suddenly, the climax fell to an end. It was interrupted by his own voice as he shouted, “The answer is ___ !!”

It fell to an end because instead of taking the time to follow through on his own thoughts that were heading in the right direction, he rushed himself to a different path as he was more interested in the final answer and whether it was right or wrong.

But it’s the journey in piecing together the puzzle that makes looking at the final piece all the more enjoyable—not just for a teacher interested in understanding the students’ thought process, but for the student as well.

By nature, the brain likes to play detective. It becomes bored when things get too predictable. Nora Volkow, M.D., Director of the National Institute on Drug Abuse (NIDA) says that:

“Neurons really exist to process information. That’s what neurons do. If you want to anthropomorphize neurons, you can say that they are happiest when they are processing information.”

Figuring out the solution or reaching a goal in general is definitely rewarding, but from my perspective, not as rewarding as the journey, memories, and adventures created during that process. After all, your brain will always be left asking, “what’s next?”

Focusing on the thought-process and understanding how students think was not only an enjoyable experience overall, but I believe it can actually help me become a better teacher by allowing me to pinpoint where the focus needs to be. 

Everybody’s Children

In Congo, the saying goes: “When a woman is carrying a baby, it’s her baby. But when the baby is born, it’s everybody’s child.” Unfortunately, this reality only exists on a minor scale in today’s society and most likely confined to one’s inner circle; which is why this documentary was really hard to watch. The refugee crisis is closer than ever and one can only begin to imagine the tales of struggle they are going through. Although I had some sort of previous understanding of the problems faced by refugees, this documentary definitely opened my eyes to details I never might have even considered about their daily struggles.


First, I must admit that I was one of those people who thought that Canada had some sort of system put in place to take care of refugees. I was shocked and confused as to why and how could there be no such thing. In the words of Ann Woolger-Bell, “Most Canadians presume that anyone that comes into Canada asking for asylum as a refugee, that there is a system in place where they are sheltered, welcomed and assisted. There is nothing. They are numbered among the homeless!”

They are numbered among the homeless?!! This is truly heartbreaking! I mean, even from a political and economic perspective, if we don’t guide them to finding the right path now, we will have to face the consequences that surface as a result after. It’s really just delaying the problem.

Second, it was pure sadness to watch how Joyce and Sallieu, two unaccompanied minor refugees, live such lonely lives at such a young age. Even when they have tears of joy, there is really no one around to celebrate with. Although I was happy to see that they are both resilient and able to maintain an optimistic look on life, I couldn’t help but think that the hug Joyce received at church from a stranger might have been the only affection she received all year. Similarly, throughout the documentary, all Sallieu hoped for was someone to talk to and share ideas or even just a meal with. No one from his school even knew that he lived alone or had any idea of the struggles he was facing. I believe that much more support could and should have been provided to these students. In an indirect way, teachers could have also provided support by incorporating essential skills/knowledge and truly authentic tasks tailored to address their current struggles directly into their lesson plans.

Finally, Joyce and Sallieu’s view on school is that it is some sort of bridge that just needs to be crossed in order to find success and happiness. They believe that one-day everything will be ok once they have a degree because it will enable them to find a job and thus be happy. This is great and all, but in my belief, not the right approach. First, “Canada” was that bridge to happiness, and now “school” has taken on that role. By the time they started applying to college they really had no idea what it is they wanted to do. Although Salliue was interested in becoming a firefighter, I felt he chose this path only because he wasn’t really exposed to other interests at school. Instead of providing them with a platform to discover their interests and abilities, school was just something they wanted to bypass in order to find happiness.

We Were Children

Coincidentally, as I was reflecting on this movie/documentary and the readings around it, a song came on the radio which truly captured my thoughts. It was an Indigenous version of ‘O Canada’ but with lyrics surrounding the painful experiences of the Residential School System and the bridge toward Truth and Reconciliation. I tried to find it online but had no luck. This line “They cried to be heard again” truly touched me, especially after watching in disturbing detail the horrific experiences of those innocent children. Because these stories have been hidden from the public eye for so long—and I would argue that to some extent they still are—every time they have to retell their stories in order to be heard, tears come down as painful memories resurface.

Battiste highlights that “Once modern society became convinced of the absolute right and virtue of its values and institutions, either real or imaginary, it set out to convert all other societies with which they came into contact …the modern educational system was created to maintain the identity, language, and culture of a colonial society, while ignoring the need to decolonize” (Pg. 30). Erasing or reshaping ones’ identity toward a uniform “dominant” society is the perfect recipe toward creating a generation of LOST. They are neither part of the dominant society nor do they belong to their own. Simply put; one cannot know where they are going without knowing where they come from.

Battiste’s words really spoke to me because aside from the dark and hidden history of the Residential School system, many of the problems she mentioned are starting to take shape in the new generation of my own culture. Since the emergence of private Eurocentric schools in Egypt, new generations have increasingly come to devalue the need to learn their own language and are slowly starting to lose interest in their own culture. It’s amazing how much influence schools can have on shaping identities of future generations and even more so, how teachers can significantly change the path of many lives by building bridges. As teachers, we have a major role to play within Truth and Reconciliation and must understand that not only do we affect the lives of the students we interact with, but the many generations they will lead. While Battiste’s writing was directed more toward expected change from the government, I believe that actual change will occur from a bottom-up approach when we as teachers engineer safe and stable bridges that introduce our students to a world of hope and possibilities.

Here is a song that may capture some of the memories surrounding Residential School Experiences: